Heartbreak

 Fuck me.  We all go the way of heartbreak when one of the kids does.  The long relationship is impossible to detach from or detangle from when both children involved have been your children for ten years.  It would be easy if we could just reverse out and align with the birth child but it's impossible.  Hannah is my girl and Neil is Mikela's boy and that won't change.  I know over time it will become something different and the relationship will become whatever it becomes when families shift and whether we like it or not change is essential to move forward.  Fuck me though.